Second
“I’m sorry but my diagnose for you is you’re having Major Depressive Disorder (MDD). You know your depression can lead you to Bipolar Disorder right?” 😢 I was crying non stop the whole time. Entah kenapa sebelum ni my session with the other doctor for only up to 15-20 mins, this time around it took up to 2 hours! The whole time aku fikir kan “I need to get better, i need to get better”. This is my battle and I know that it’s going to be a long one this time around. Setiap hari bila bangun tidur, I feel a heavy heart. Hard to explain why and how the feeling was, tapi itulah dia. I don’t have any interest towards my job, or even my life anymore. Setiap hari lepas selesai kan anak-anak pergi sekolah, aku akan tidur ataupun tengok Netflix. You know…anything yang distract my mind daripada keep on berfikir. Setiap hari aku akan rasa aku macam manusia yang takde soul. Sometimes I spent my time with friends, I laugh with them but deep inside myself I felt nothing. Aku tak mampu nak ras